I think many of us are guilty of picturing our lives being a certain way by a certain time in our lives. I know I did. Marriage, babies, white picket fences. I pictured it all. What I didn't picture was that at the age of 27 I would be overweight, depressed, and living thousands of miles away from my family in a marriage that was quickly approaching it's expiration date. My life had spun out of control and I didn't know how to get it back. I realized that I needed something just for me that I could feel good about. I needed one thing that I could succeed at when I felt like I was failing at everything else.
The idea of running did not come to me in a dream, or through some spiritual epiphany. And I didn't read about its many health benefits in Shape magazine. One of the only close friends I had at that time, Molly, was a runner and suggested I try it - couldn't hurt right? I found the Couch to 5k program online and decided I'd give it a shot. To keep myself motivated, I registered for a 5k 9 weeks out. I figured if nothing else, just knowing that I had a race in two months would scare me into sticking with it.
Training wasn't easy. I was slow. I was not in any kind of shape. I fought shin splints. I had bought cheap, crappy shoes because I didn't know any better. There were good days and there were bad days, but I never regretted getting out there. On October 2, 2010 I finished my first 5k - the Shelby Bottoms Boogie - in 33:33. I ran the whole thing without stopping thanks to Molly running next to me and encouraging me the entire time. I was so excited that I had done it but I'm not going to lie, I was not addicted to running after that - I still didn't get it. I did two more races within the next four months, each one worse than the one before. I kind of gave up and took off about 3 months off before picking it up again - and actually sticking with it - for good.
Something clicked the following spring when I started running again and I really started to love and appreciate it. My pace improved and it got easier........no........I got better! I experienced the infamous "runner's high" and gradually increased my mileage. I finally felt like I was a runner.
Fast forward three years, I've lost probably 25ish pounds and I have run 9 5k's, a 15k, 2 half marathons, and am currently training for my third. I love running. I crave it. It can brighten my mood even on my worst days and I love that it keeps me healthy and in shape - both mentally and physically. It makes me feel strong, accomplished, and fierce. Running gave me the confidence to regain control of my life and find happiness again. It saved my life and I am truly a better person because I am a runner.
L.